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to everyone who had a good pandemic

Metadata

title
to everyone who had a good pandemic
meaning
KŌAN LP closer: quiet without you, podcast as noise, Google life expectancy: boss says just a cold, why'd I laugh along; don't dance and sing about it.
year
2022
release
KŌAN
releaseType
album
artist
Scoobert Doobert
artistId
#scoobert
credits
Written, performed, and mixed by Luke Francis Walton. Mastered by Riley Knapp. Artwork by Grizzard Graphics.
spotify
https://open.spotify.com/album/2wGa9TxP1UvCn1hnfyyV6v
apple
https://music.apple.com/us/album/kōan/1618191665
themes
  • The pandemic
  • Death
  • Capitalism and work
  • survivor guilt
  • KŌAN
  • 2022
isrc
QZHN32255318
isrcSource
soundexchange
draft
false

Lyrics

It's quiet here without you
I listen to a podcast
To fill the noise
You left
Behind
You left
Me so much time

I Google my life expectancy
How do you expect me
To live another 40 years without
You hearing
How I'm doing
I'm not fine

To everyone who had a good pandemic
I hope that you won't dance and sing about it

It's quiet here without you
So quiet here without you
I need to work
To get my mind distracted

Everybody's joking now
It's just a cold
It's over now
I laugh and smile
They are my boss after all

I laughed along
Laughed along
Laughed along
Laughed along
I laughed along
Laughed along
I laughed along
Oh why'd I laugh along
Laughed along
Oh why did I laugh along
Laughed along
Oh why did I laugh along
I laughed along
Laughed along
Oh why'd I laugh
Why'd I ever laugh along?

To everyone who had a good pandemic
I hope that you won't dance and sing about it
To everyone who had a good pandemic
I sure hope that you wouldn't brag about it

Content

Track twenty-six on KŌAN, the LP closer, fourth movement only (after Miss Disinformation). Not on the KŌAN A/B/C chapters. Luke solo. The record ends not on an answer but on an address, to the people who thrived while others didn't.

It opens on absence as sound: it's quiet here without you / I listen to a podcast to fill the noise you left behind, grief measured in empty hours, with background audio standing in for a person. Then the search engine as oracle, I Google my life expectancy / how do you expect me to live another 40 years without you hearing how I'm doing. The dead don't get updates.

The title refrain isn't envy: I hope that you won't dance and sing about it, a plea against performative recovery, sharpened on the last pass to I sure hope that you wouldn't brag about it. Around it, return-to-office horror, everybody's joking now / it's just a cold / it's over now, where you laugh because they are my boss after all, same boss energy as a song to quit your job to and No Worries, Yes Worries. The bridge turns that complicity over and over (oh why'd I laugh along), I'm an Idiot's social fake-laugh with a moral hangover after loss.

It closes KŌAN, which opened with Think About It and passed through pandemic-era Boardwalk, on one plain line: some people didn't get a good pandemic. Pairs with Pandemic Blues and A Good Life on Masks and Monsters, and with Miss Disinformation: one lies about facts, one dances over graves.