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title: "More to Lose"

meaning: "KŌAN B loneliness loop: don't wanna be alone or die alone: the more you live the more you lose, not much else to do, then no no no no."

year: 2022
release: "KŌAN"
releaseType: "album"

artist: "Scoobert Doobert"
artistId: "#scoobert"

credits: "Written, performed, and mixed by Luke Francis Walton. Mastered by Riley Knapp. Artwork by Grizzard Graphics."

spotify: "https://open.spotify.com/album/2wGa9TxP1UvCn1hnfyyV6v"
apple: "https://music.apple.com/us/album/kōan/1618191665"

themes: ["KŌAN", "loneliness", "loss", "mortality", "grief"]

isrc: QZDA82294199
isrcSource: soundexchange
lyrics: |
  I don't wanna be alone
  It's all I've ever known
  I don't wanna die alone
  It's all we've ever known

  I don't wanna be alone
  In time, that's all I'll know
  The more you live
  The more you lose
  Not much else to do

  I don't wanna be alone
  No
  It's all I've ever known
  I don't wanna die alone
  No
  It's all we've ever known

  I don't wanna be alone
  In time, that's all I'll know
  The more you live
  The more you lose
  Not much else to do

  I don't wanna be alone
  No
  I don't wanna be alone
  No
  I don't wanna be alone
  No
  I don't wanna be alone
  No

draft: false

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Track eleven on [*KŌAN*](/albums/koan/), **KŌAN B** (May 2022), between [*Less than Nothing*](/songs/less-than-nothing/) and [*High Society*](/songs/high-society/). Luke solo. Where *Less than Nothing* asks dumb questions and withholds the payoff, this strips to a single fear stated plainly.

The verse toggles between *I* and *we* (*it's all I've ever known* / *it's all we've ever known*), loneliness as both personal history and the shared dread after the pandemic years on this record. The title hook is the koan without jokes: *the more you live, the more you lose, not much else to do.* No NFT, no beach, no army ads, just arithmetic, and the only refusal is *no* tagged after each line. The song ends still asking.

Same post-*Big Hug* loneliness lane as [*If I Could Only*](/songs/if-i-could-only/) (*wake alone untethered*) and [*All My Friends Live on the Internet*](/songs/all-my-friends-live-on-the-internet/) on KŌAN C, but minimal here: no characters, no internet, just the loop. Pairs with [*Less than Nothing*](/songs/less-than-nothing/) as KŌAN B's body-versus-isolation diptych, breath you can't trust and company you can't keep.

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